Oh those Samoyed smiles.
Change isn’t always easy. Lately I’ve been looking back a lot at my comfort zone. Back to what I’m used to, what I miss. Old habits die hard, right? I have to keep reminding myself that change never happens within your comfort zone. There are so many things I need to work on. And there is no doubt in my mind that once this has passed, no matter how painful growth can be, it is for the better.
Look how far we’ve come. Keep going.
I still believe, no matter what you say.
Typically whenever I or my significant other goes on vacation, I am more than happy about the distance and for the trip to be experienced alone. “I’ll tell you everything when I get back.”
But this time around I need to hear from him. I want to know how his trip is. I want to tell him how I’m feeling about mine. My day is not the same without talking to him.
Excuse me while I go look over all our pictures and messages.
I am myself.
What a strange, wannabe-poetic expression but currently, this is what I feel and this is what I’ve been told. It’s almost like I don’t need to be “on” all the time. Doing or saying things because I think that’s what someone else likes. I’ve always enjoyed someone I could be around in my PJ’s and no make-up on, but this is on a different level of comfort. It’s some sort of contentment but not quite as flat. I seem to be “on” without even trying.
I feel like myself. Really and truly - more in my own skin than I have been in a very long time.
I spent my last 2 days of the long weekend with my mother. I promised her that when I get home this weekend, I would dedicate all of my time for her. Living in different cities doesn’t allow us to do that often anymore and I think we both needed it.
I cannot describe how crazy my mom can drive me sometimes. But I also cannot put into perfect words how much she means to me. How much she’s done for me and how she has helped mold me into the person I am today.
She has helped me accomplish things that I could never have done at my age on my own. There is no way I would own a house without her. Or even be a yoga teacher. An art director. And soon dive into the world of culinary arts.
My mom has always been there to help me support what I always believed: to follow your passions. I lost it for a while, but it only takes a bit of patience and someone who loves you to help you get back on track.
And when I am so driven by my own wants, passions, she will always ground me with love and just being a good person (even though it’s not so easy sometimes haha).
I just wanted to take this morning to say that God has blessed me with the most amazing person to raise me, take care of me, and love me for everything that I am.
This delicious bacon n’ mac n’ cheese was $4.95. Along with EVERYTHING else we ate. Find out where in Toronto here :)
My porch, Mono deal, dark chocolate + MKTO were all pieces of a great evening.But the best part was when he said yes to our GEM.
For everything that’s happened, I’m so thankful. Thank You, for my life and strength.
He didn’t like being barricaded in the office on a Saturday
From every strand of hair on her head, to her tiny toes. Her dark brown eyes when they light up from his jokes. The curves of her smile when he touches her hand. The look she has when she’s thinking. The crinkle on her nose when she’s worried. In his mind, she is the most beautiful woman he’s ever met inside and out.
He didn’t know what this was before, or thought that he was capable. Not in the three decades he’s been alive, meeting people from all over the world. He knows it now; he knows that he is in love. But he’s in love with the broken hearted.
She’s been here before, and it’s easy to be in love. But she’s also discovered that it’s easy to fall out of love.
As she puts back all her pieces, she watches his efforts to show her otherwise.
Slowly, she falls for his patience
and everything about him too.
You learn to let go, when you get hurt.
When your best is not good for someone, it’s time to realize that it might not ever be. They won’t change how they feel and you can never be anyone else but you.
The only thing to do is to always try to be the best version of you. Be kind. Be accepting. Be mindful. Be whatever it means to be a better person and you can’t do anything else but say you gave it your best.
I will admit, that these past few months, even years, my faith has slowly diminished little by little. And slowly I started to believe that I was doing better without it. My life on this earth to say the least is really great. I have everything I could need and want. I have amazing people in my life and everything came easy.
But something was always missing and talking to friends or my boyfriend would only help for a moment. The questions were still there. The doubt was still there and tucked away to re-emerge at another time.
So I lived my life how I was. Going through the motions.
It was only until my favourite minister who I haven’t spoken to in so long, approached me out of the blue and decided to give me a talk.
I felt more of the Holy Spirit talking to him for 20 minutes than I have the past few years. And it made me realize that someone is obviously looking out for me despite my disregard for Him.